Trial Transfer

Today was my trial transfer and it was well - very interesting and odd. The worst part was the speculum, but with me that is always an issue for some reason. There was some slight cramping at the time the saline was injected - but other than that no issues. Which is great news. We can continue with the IVF cycle, no surgery to remove any polyps necessary.

So I stop BCP's on 1/1/10 and wait for CD1 - and the fun begins. Oh and for the first time ever, seems no issues with the specialty pharmacy. Knock on Wood it continues. Just waiting for the micro-lupron to be mixed and they can send it out.

Blog back at ya' come next week sometime...

Science Experiment

I am starting to feel like me and my eggs are a science experiment LOL. I met with Dr. D on Wednesday and all the necessary papers have been signed. I think there were more than when I purchased my house. There were a lot. But we decided, well he did and I agreed because after all he is the doctor and I am 37 1/2 years old, that we would do ICSI to rule out any disagreements between my eggs and the donor sperm. We are joining them together whether they like each other or not. And then we are utilizing the assisted hatching technique where they "clean off" the edge of the egg to give it a better chance of attaching to the uterus. So tentative egg retrieval is January 18th. Obviously this depends on CD 1 as I am to quit taking the BC pills on 1/1/10 - Happy New Year!

I have the mock embryo transfer on 12/28 to make sure there are no issues with my uterus. And I have to have more blood work done to make sure the doctor knows the status of my ovaries and make sure I have no diseases that would cause issue.

So here's to hoping that the IVF cycle #1 works! And Happy Holidays!

CD1 - December 11, 2009

Well today is the first day of the IVF #1 cycle. I am nervous not quite knowing what to expect over this next two months. I am hopeful that I will end this cycle with positive results. I start the BC portion of the cycle on Sunday and then on Wednesday 16th I go to the doctor's office to sign the consent forms and I assume get my calendar.

I do have lined up my mother to help me when the egg retrieval is scheduled. Since I will be under for that I obviously will not be able to drive myself home from the office. Oh did I ever mention that I am doing this alone via sperm donor. Yes I will be a Single Mom by Choice (SMC) hopefully one day soon. I know that some of you may think negatively on this and all I have to say is that this is my choice to make. Obviously, your choice may be different and that is what makes you wonderfully you. :o)

So here I go down this unknown path... Hopefully soon ending with very positive results.

Cancelled

Well, as I thought, I did not respond to the Menopur. There was no further growth in the follicles and my E2 level was just over 130, so didn't even double. So we cancelled the cycle. Needless to say very disappointed.

So next step is IVF. I am not familiar with this whole process, but jumping in with both feet. The only question I have is whether to start with my next CD1 which would be in November or wait until December CD1 which would pult all bw and u/s in January after the holidays - I think. That will be something I need to talk with the dr's office about. I am leaning more to the second option. Year end with work is going to get hairy, plus I will be going out of town for the four day Christmas weekend. So I think logistically this is the best option for me.

Plus, I might add that my FSA is out of cash - planned it well this year. Nothing left over and only a few bills to pay with my own cash. So I know what to put in for next year.

So I have drowned my depression in Halloween candy yesterday and today - so out of the funk, loose weight over the next couple of months and get on with the IVF baby-makin'

Hopefully Soon....

CD8 - 10/28/09

Well CD 8 ultrasound went well - 6 follies ranging from 9-11, so half way there and cycle days and follies are half way there as well. They did double the meds as my estrodial levels were a bit low.

LH - 4.8
Prog - 0.43
E2 - 83.1 (I read they want it over 100 or double CD3 results, I met one of the two)

So now on 150 twice a day on Menopur and 0.2 twice a day on Lupron.

Next appt on CD10... Back then.

CD4 - 10/24/09

Here we go again - Injectable cycle #3 and last. If this one doesn't work off to IVF - I think insurance wise, I can do 2 IVF cycles.

So here's to a positive result before Thanksgiving.

This time around we started a week ahead of time for prescribing the meds, again, I was on the phone the day before I needed them arguing with the insurance company and the drug company about their incompetance and unorganization in letting this carry on far too long and close yet again! Luckily I did get most of meds in time, however the microlupron won't be here until Monday. I do have some left over from the last time and then an unopened one from the drug company. However, the drug company says to throw away after 10/1. I don't understand how the one that I purchased from the drug store is OK until 2010 and the other one isn't. And so since it was unopened, I will use it for a few days until I get this one. Uggghh!! They are highly aggravating.

We have changed my meds from Gonal F to Menopur this time, so hopefully this will work. However, last time I was on Menopur they said I didn't react to it like I should and moved me to Gonal F. So not sure why we went back. Maybe it's the bit of weight I lost that I am over reacting to the Gonal F. Who the heck knows.

CD3 bw results - LH 2.1; E2 30.1

Anyway, hopefully soon...

October 4, 2009

Well, HPT was negative. It was highly disappointing. I was so completely sure, things felt so different. Guess it was the PIO shots I was doing that made all the difference. Ugh!!! Well I am starting week 3 of this cycle, I took this one off - and I will start up again I suppose the end of October. However, next week I will call the nurse to have her start on getting the script preapprovals and orders so we do not have to stress about me getting them on time. That was a mess last time! Hopefully, it will be positive HPT soon - I am hoping I do not have to go to IVF but it's looking like that will be the next step if I get another negative. Although, I am so ready for that positive, I look forward to the odds being a bit better. Just do not like the invasiveness of it.

Well write again at the next cycle... Baby dust to everyone...

CD20 - 8dpiui

It's now 8dpiui, still trying to remain optimistic.

6 dpiui was rough - PMS cramps I feel were worse than CD1 cramps. What is weird is the next day hardly anything and today not much of anything either. Just the sore tatas from the PIO injections. I feel like my skin is more oily than normal too - could the oil from the PIO be causing this??? I wonder...

Yesterday was the 7dpiui P4 test - and that was really good - it was 22.3. That is way higher than it has ever been in the past. I am hoping that is a good sign. Although, they say you can't tell positive pregnancy by the P4 test.

Now the count down is on for the HPT on Tuesday morning - hopefully positive and I can start the Beta testing.

Fingers crossed!

CD17 - 5DPIUI

Well, it's now five days past and I am really trying not to obsess over every twinge I am feeling and the tender/tingling bbs. But it's difficult. Implantation is suppossed to be happending any time now, so I am still a'hopin' this is the one.

Of course all these symptoms could be from the PIO shot that I am doing each night. But still optimistic...

Tuesday I go and get the P4 test to see if my progesterone is high enough to support a pregnancy. It never has been before, but I had always done suppositories (sp). Now that I am on the shots I am hoping that I am doing well in that area.

Not a whole lot of news to tell, the 2WW stinks and is extremely too long! What was Mother Nature thinking on this whole process...

CD15 - 2dpiui

Well here it is 2dpiui. I am trying not to obsess over every little twinge and pang. It's hard though. I have been a lot less obsessive this round though, I am actually somewhat at peace. I guess because I just have the oddest feeling this might just be the one. Not sure why, maybe just positive thinking.

The day of the IUI, I had serious cramping afterwards, probably for about 4-5 hours. They say that ovulation takes place 36-42 hours after trigger shot - so I am hoping that is the case and we are well timed. I also had been ill, I think it was the Lupron. It was the only new drug - but regardless - sick feeling for four days - it was definately no fun. However! If that is what morning sickness will be like for me - OK with me since no actual getting sick. Just feeling sick.

Also on a good note, the ds was right where it should be with 20 mil and 40% motility. So fingers crossed.

On the obsessive side - Sunday and Monday will be 5 & 6 days after iui which is when they anticipate implantation to take place. I am going to try to not freak about every twinge and pang that day... Wishing lots o' baby dust to me and everyone else trying for their little miracle.

CD11

September 6
So today's u/s was a bit more eventful than I had planned. Seems I had one follie be over 18, another at 16, two at 14 and several at 13. So trigger is tonight and IUI is on Tuesday. Considering I was not expecting the IUI to be until Thursday, I was very surprised.

Anyway, in the back of my head I really feel that this one is going to work. I am trying not to get all excited about it just in case. But things do feel different this time around than I have ever felt before. So just thinking it will work this time...

Will write again later.

CD9

September 4, 2008 - CD 9
Today's ultrasound yielded 5 follies, 3 11's and 2 10's. Pretty good for half way there. They did reduce my Gonal F from 150 2 times/day to 225/day. So that is good news. And I still have the Micro-Lupron 2/day. My bloodwork were good results too - all I remember though was my estrodial being 527. I am feeling very achy and tired from the Micro Lupron shots in my upper thighs. I am having slight hot flashes and twinges in my sides - I am assuming from the follies growing...

This go round was a major hassle getting the pre-approval from the insurance and getting the meds from the mail-order pharm. I am glad this is covered under insurance, but man they hold you hostage. What a major ordeal!

So more b/w tomorrow and u/s on Sunday morning... If all still looks good, looks like Thursday will be attempt #3. Third time's the charm - right? I am praying...

July 19, 2009

So, a week after my vacation. I went to Atlanta - it was hot, humid and buggy! Ugh... But it was nice... I saw my nieces and nephew. My nephew turned 2 while I was there - he is so darned cute. And I took my two nieces to the Georgia Aquarium which was very neat. They have the mantra ray there - that thing is huge. Three Beluga whales and two whale sharks. I can't believe they can fit those inside an aquarium - the tanks must gynormous...

I have been finishing up getting things done outside so that I can start my next round of IUI without any projects to do. However, I might have to delay yet another month - it is kind of upsetting to me. I may have some business trips next month to make - so with those looming I can't very well try to get baby making visits schedule in there to. Ughh...

12dpiui - Bad News

Well here it is 12dpiui and AF arrived out of no where. So disappointing. Oh well, next time - Hopefully soon... Going to take a month off because of some traveling - so at least there is that.

On other news, I met up with an aunt that I had a falling out with about six years ago and really haven't talked to. It was nice - but weird. She jumped right in like nothing had ever happened. But we met for two hours - SURPRISED!!! But maybe things can become better - not sure that they will be back to where things were but it will be nice to have my aunt back in my life. Maybe we have moved on since our explosion and pettiness.

Stressed

So a couple of weekends ago I planted a tree in my backyard. The poor thing is not doing too well. The leaves are changing color, though none have fallen. I am thinking I am going to return it and get another one. I really hate that because it was the prettiest one that they had. Ugh... I am also thinking about just making the whole bigger and mixing the dirt that is in there with spagnum peat, getting one of those water rings and giving it some time... I am not sure what to do. Guess I will figure it out when I go to the garden center tomorrow to see what they have - I really want this variety of tree. It is a Serviceberry - Autumn Brilliance.

On to my own stresses over this whole two week wait. Every little flutter, every little pain I wonder if that is a sign. It's enough to drive someone over the edge. Today is 8dpiui - I have had pain in my left ovary (which is the one that did all of the work and provided 3 follies) along with cramps in my abdomen. Implantation??? or AF???? It didn't help that I didn't do anything today either but sit around and analyze everything.

Wow this is kind of gripe session post this evening... Hopefully working in the yard tomorrow will get me out of the funk that I am in.

First Blog

Wow! My first blog and first entry...

Let me introduce myself. My name is Diane, I am 37 and have two fur-babies. I am currently in the process of trying to conceive a baby via IUI. Today is 7 dpiui (days past iui); I went had my P4 test, but I didn't hear back from the doctor. I tried to get to the lab first thing the morning but I overslept and didn't make it - so I went at lunch. Could be the results didn't get there in time. Anyway, so I am waiting to hear back the results on that.

I have a few symptoms but not much and mostly due to the progesterone suppositories that I have to do.

So I am one week into the horrid TWW and hoping this is the one. Technically this is IUI#2, but the 1st one was two years ago and then I changed jobs and then laid off. But good news is, better insurance - YAY!

So like I said I am new to this whole blogging thing and look forward to being able to write/type my happenings and hoping for a BFP next week...